C'est La Vie

2011-06-14T23:38:00.001-07:00

I kinda miss having nice things said to me.
To feel appreciated and cared for.

This week really fucking sucks big time.
But i'm gonna change that.

2011-06-14T16:17:00.001-07:00

“Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.” - Paulo Coelho

2011-06-06T20:31:00.000-07:00

"Sometimes I get tired of trying to convince him that I love him and shall love him for ever. He pounces on my words like a barrister and twists them. I know he is afraid of that desert which would be around him if our love were to end, but he can’t realize that I feel exactly the same. What he says aloud through actions, I say to myself silently and write it here."
— Graham Greene (The End of the Affair)

2011-06-06T20:13:00.000-07:00

I kinda miss the man you used to be.

Dig

2011-01-01T10:37:00.001-08:00

We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify.
Look me in the eye
and ask for forgiveness;
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again.
Yes, you are my friend.

We all have something that digs at us.
At least we dig each other.
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday.

If I turn into another,
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

We all have a sickness
That cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how we try.

We all have someone that digs at us.
At least we dig each other.
So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.

If I turn into another,
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

2010-09-18T10:23:00.000-07:00

I know things.

But just because I don't talk about it or bring it up,

just because I act as if it never ever did happen,

just because I can smile and spend time with you as if nothing is wrong,

it doesn't mean that I'm oblivious to it all.

2010-09-05T22:30:00.000-07:00

We lose the people we love

because they are meant to love someone else.

We lose them because we are destined to find someone else.

It is a simple fact that is sometimes hard to accept because we are too stubborn to let go of something that doesn't belong to us anymore.

2010-09-05T19:36:00.000-07:00

I have yet to meet anyone quite like you.

Someone I can make happy memories with

and yet also somehow pull through the not-so-happy-ones together.

2010-07-17T12:11:00.000-07:00

Don't you sometimes dislike sharing very personal things with someone who doesn't share theirs as much as you do with them?

Sure there is trust.

But there's always this feeling. A feeling I can't quite define.

2010-07-11T00:45:00.002-07:00

I need to be less selfish.

Long term benefits are, in the end, benefits after all.

It is when you start demanding benefits, things start to disappoint.

Do not expect things from others but yourself.

2010-07-01T18:34:00.000-07:00

"Too many people spend money they haven't earned, to buy things they don't want, to impress people they don't like." - Will Smith

My current state in Life...

2010-06-30T08:43:00.000-07:00

... is pretty. darn. good.

1) I got a job! At a dental clinic! Cleaning dental equipments and tools. The pay is ~$9/hr but I'm mostly in for the experience (learning tool names, proper hygiene protocols etc.). It's a nice clinic downtown (near to a shopping complex - yay) and the people who works there seem really nice! The interview was quick and easy. "If you want the job, the job is yours!" Too easy isn't it? Well I really thank God for that. I really do. It's a rare opportunity for pre-dent students to get this chance so I'm really grateful. I owe having this job post to Krystyn. Thanks again!

2) Been doing very well in Summer school! Yay! I'm so happy it has not been too warm in my duration in Summer school or I'll probably be so very distracted by the Sun and grass and people.

3) I'd be leaving the house in a bit to meet up with the Symphony Splash coordinator. I plan to volunteer a bit this Summer and this would be a great event to know people (probably increase my number of acquaintances and not so much friends - Oh how I wish i had a good memory with names!) and have fun! I really enjoy working with people; assist people in any way. It gives me such great pleasure and satisfaction!

4) I should really get around having coffee with Quinn. I'll probably do that next week!

5) I'll be soaking up some Sun with Natalia alongside some nice HEALTHY food (we've both been exercising a lot) this coming Sunday and I really can't wait for that! I'm thinking grain salad, greek salad, nice bread and maybe a cocktail? Hehehe. It's been a while since I last hung out with a girl (no kidding). It's really hard to find good girl friends here! I just feel so much more comfortable with the drama-less, straightforward guys! There are also still a few of my Brunei friends who I miss oh-so-dearly. :)

6) Been going to the gym a lot and tried out a new method for the abs and boy, do I feel the burn. I'm starting to get the abs line-divider thing and I'm hoping the sides will be more conspicuous now (without flexing them. HAHA!).

That's it for now I guess. Oh! Canada Day is coming up and I plan to spend it with the family and Barbara at her Summer house on Saltspring Island. There are kayaks there, a deck to chill on... no internet though! :O But i'm pretty sure I'll survive a night without internet. :P

I'm off!

2010-06-27T23:54:00.000-07:00

This heavy ache in my throat

Eye corners welling

Boy, when Reality hits,

it hits real hard.

2010-06-20T08:40:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but...

I just don't feel happy.

I miss my Dad a lot.

It's Father's Day and I can't even spend it with my Dad.

It's Father's Day and our family is separated by miles and miles of sea.

Sigh. There's so much I want to vent and say but this blog is just too public.

There are many things I keep inside. Things you'd never understand even if you tried to.

2010-05-04T21:31:00.001-07:00

So hmm... Life is pretty darn good in general.

Got back all my results from last semester and they're great! :D Well not too great on 2 of them coz I thought I could've scored at least an A grade but I'm most definitely thankful to God. :) Hardwork really does pay off and so does insane amounts of caffeine and late night sleeps! Never again am I taking 4 lab courses - Anatomy, Chemistry, Biology and Physics. All from 4 totally unrelated fields. Kamikaze indeed. Well, I'm so glad it's over!

This Summer, I'll be back in school to do a couple of courses as I plan to get as many credits as I can in the shortest period of time and hence, apply for Dentistry sooner and probably graduate sooner!

Those who know me super well, know I like to do plans. So here's my Summer plan!

1. ACE and I mean seriously get As and A+s for my Psychology and English courses.

2. Spend as much time as I can with the people I love and care about.

3. Have fun on an Island a little away from Vancouver Island on a church ladies retreat in 2 weeks time which will involve Mango slushies, kayaking, God-time and not too much small talk! Yay!

4. Make Mango cheesecake with well, real mangos.

5. Go on awesome road trips and adventures! Hehe.

6. Study more Dental Aptitude Test material and probably invest in more.

7. Pickle some stuff in a jar!

8. Do as much voluntary work as I can.

9. Finally get around playing a duet on the piano with the legendary church pianist (he's really damn good).

10. Camping trip?

11. Finally bike to Sooke.

12. Wear all my awesome Summer clothes and take photos of them to show a couple of my friends what I wear to Uni.

I had such a great day today! Yesterday too. Tomorrow will be another one.

I feel very blessed. :)

Moses

2010-03-19T21:54:00.000-07:00

Come on now, don't you want to see?
This thing that's happening to me
Like Moses has power over sea
So you've got power over me

Come on now, don't you want to know?
You're a refuge, somewhere I can go
You're air that, air that I can breathe
Cause you're my golden opportunity

And oh, oh yes I would
If I only could
And you know I would
And baby I, oh baby I
I wish

Come on now, don't you want to see?
Just what a difference you've made in me
I'll be waiting oh no matter what you say
Cause I've been waiting for days, days, days

And oh, oh yes I would
If I only could
And you know I would
And baby I, oh baby I
I wish
I wish

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
If the sky's gonna fall down, let it fall on me
If you're gonna break down, you can break on me
If the sky's gonna fall down, let it fall on me
If it's gonna rain down, it can rain on me
It can rain on me

Do you love me enough to let me go?

2010-03-19T07:19:00.000-07:00

My eyes quiver at the thought of you.
Your smile, it still makes me weak.
What hurts the most is that
you me
really didn't go wrong.

Love was there.
Happiness was there.
Support was there.
Everything was there.

We had something
everybody else didn't have.

I don't know why but I could no longer suppress that feeling.
I've never been so sure.
Every seed dies before it grows.
I Love You enough to let you go.

2010-02-10T19:05:00.000-08:00

Hsien Huey.

Pull yourself together.

You can do this.

You've always had.
You will this time.

Ace this.

Oh yeah.

------------------------------------------------------------------------
Today was pretty decent. Less hectic but the sleep deprivation thing is certainly catching up! I have to keep having power-naps between classes sometimes to keep fresh.

No pain no gain.

Also, I'm aching all over because yesterday I finally tried out that machine which works on your chest muscles and I seriously think I did it wrongly because I worked out my biceps instead and now they're a tad bit sore. :( Speaking of biceps, I grew some. I'm not sure if I like them yet but they certainly make me look as if I could beat the crap out of anyone who messes with me (only if I flex it, that is. :P).

Ooh! I've been drinking a lot of Ceylon Jasmine Green Tea and it tastes absolutely amazing with honey. Mmh~

Life is hard but good.
Always good. :)

You.

2010-02-08T22:17:00.000-08:00

Just moments ago, I had a minor epiphany.
One of those moments when you just stop what you're doing and just think about your current state in Life and sense an overwhelming flow of gratefulness.

I am grateful.

For everything I have.
Though not much,
though not too little,
but just enough.

Thank you God for always being faithful.
I know I've not always been to You.
I know I've probably been
too caught up with the hustles and bustles of Life.

To even pause.
To think.
And to be thankful.

For the roof over me.
For the Love You blessed me with.
For the struggles you've tried and still is trying to mold me with.
For providing for all my needs.

I thank You.

Humanly Complex

2010-02-07T16:10:00.000-08:00

Sometimes it's really hard not to think and be jealous at how easy Life can be for certain people.
Sometimes it's really hard not to think and be thankful for what you have because things could've been much worse.

I think every human being is destined to climb a mountain at least once in their life.
Some may climb many small hills.
Some may have it easy and maybe only need to climb one challenging one.
Some may climb alone their whole life.
Some may start alone but finish it with a soulmate.
Some may find a soulmate in the process of climbing.

Some may climb the mountain for good academic results,
some the acceptance of people,
some the mountain for low self-esteem,
some financial-wise,
some emotionally,
some even all.

I'm in the process of climbing my mountain.
It's not easy and its getting quite steep as time progresses.
The only way to survive this is to rely on my climbing equipments.
My faith in God, my supportive family and friends and with all the resources I can muster from my own flesh and blood.

Looking into the future in faith is really hard too. Everything is unsure. So fragile.

Sometimes I think mountains are set for us to climb so we can come out a better human being after the climb.
Better equipped in Life. Emotionally stronger. Mentally matured.

I've never tried to change the past. Sure I've got done things I've felt bad about but honestly, I've never really had regrets. (Regrets meaning big regrets not the kind of "man i should've totally studied harder" kind of regret)
This is because all that I've been through has led me to where I am today. Who I am now.

I try to change the future.
My future.
Sometimes I try too hard.

Sometimes I crash.
As an over-caffeinated zombie with serious sleep deprivation.

It's true we reap what we sow.
But the harsh fact is that we don't usually reap 100% of what we sow.
Sometimes we reap half of it.
Sometimes all.
Sometimes even none at all.

I try to look far into the future in faith no matter how hard it is to.
Because all this climbing is certainly going to earn me a good view at the peak.
And then, I can only look back and be thankful for having gone this journey.

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." - Plato

Faithfully yours. ♥

2010-01-26T21:30:00.002-08:00

Hmmh.
It's getting really tough these days.
Studies-wise.
Physically too! The physical side is pretty good though! I'm improving on my cardio and am not so out of breath as before.
I have to admit, I have been SEVERELY unfit and have finally convinced myself to get my heart and muscles pumping to prevent having osteoporosis in the future. You guys must think only fat people need exercise. The fact is that everybody needs them. Human beings used to be very active physically in the past and hence, the longer life-span. So we, being the human beings of today have to still be physically active even when it means to mimic "working hard in the field" or "carrying heavy water buckets". Okay I have no idea if what I just said even made sense to you but you get my drift.

Here's a brief detail about my workout sessions.
Workout 30 minutes on the elliptical targeted on the back of thighs near to the butt. High leverage and decent amount of resistance.
Workout 30 minutes on moderate weights, 20 reps targeted on upper back, lower back, back of thighs and waist!
Workout doing sit-ups on the mats until I cannot take it anymore.

Here's a brief schedule.
Monday: Class at 10am.
Get off class at 4.30pm.
Get home and geek my heads off in Anatomy for the next day's Quiz.

Tuesday: Class at 8.30am.
Workout during lunch break followed by lunch.
Get off class at 4.30pm.
Get home and geek on... something which I neglected. Probably Physics or Biology of some sort.

Wednesday: Class at 8.30am.
Get off class at 5.30pm.
Get home and do a Chem lab prep and Biology lab prep (which takes a couple of good hours).

Thursday: Class at 10.00am.
Workout during lunch break followed by lunch.
Get off class at 5.30.
Get home and get started on Anatomy lab prep and try to finish off Chem report.

Friday: Class at 8.30am.
Get home and do more Anatomy!

Saturday: Anatomy Lab 10.00am - 4pm.
Workout 4pm-whenever.

Sunday: Anatomy Lab 11-whenever I get my work done / Church service at the Trinity Presbyterian Church.
Get home and do more Anatomy!
6-whenever at The Place (Lambrick Park Church).

My days are figuratively lather, scrub and rinse; wash, cut and cook. Very insanely monotonous, physically demanding and most definitely mentally draining.

Strange thing happened today. I've always thought I had a little bit of cellulite because it's a known fact that almost (there are of course exceptions) all women have cellulite just in different amounts. Well today, I just realized I no longer have them! Unless if I crunch my skin together then of course uneven patches of what-nots would be visible but apart from that, no cellulite! Okay well maybe still a minute amount. :P So girls, CHECK if you have cellulite and DO SOMETHING about it because you can lessen the appearance of it but you cannot exactly completely eliminate it.

My trick? I have been and still am faithfully exfoliating my skin ESPECIALLY to the back of my thighs. I mean scrub really hard in circles with a loofah and soap in a circular motion. I also lift moderate weights targeted on the back of my thighs. Oh dear. Come to think of it, I think I actually am addicted to exfoliating. I do it quite often to my face too. The after-effect just feels so good it's hard to limit to once week and even only on alternate days! :( Another secret would be to get a tan because a tan hides a lot of flaws!

So anyway,
I'm gonna hit the books now.
Anatomy! Woo~
Anatomy is actually SUPER interesting. I just wish it wasn't that demanding.

Faithfully yours. ♥

2010-01-13T07:27:00.000-08:00

I saw.
I smiled.
Kept silent.

We don't need this.

Sticks and stones; hurtin' muscles.

2010-01-11T19:55:00.000-08:00

I finally went to the gym today! Man, it was SO refreshing!
I'm going to focus on my
i) inner thighs because it's getting a tad bit too flabby for my liking. Haha!
ii) back muscles because this would give me a better posture and maybe even elongate me vertically. :P

I do workout at home by doing crunches and by lifting light weights.

So much for looking kick-ass in the summer ay?

Gonna pay $37 tomorrow to have access to the gym as many times as I want for 1 semester. Whee!

I'm so tired now. Muscle aching everywhere but I feel so accomplished somehow.

I've to shower, maybe pump a little caffeine into mah' bloodstream and then get started on some awesome Anatomy and Biology readings! WHOO~ Gotta' ace this sem'. Gonna' ace this sem'.

Ooh! I'll share a quote that I came across that made so much sense to me today.

"Love is like a friendship caught on fire.
In the beginning a flame, very pretty,
often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering.
As love grows older,
our hearts mature and our love becomes
as coals,
deep-burning and unquenchable."
- Bruce Lee

Faithfully yours. ♥

Love as it is.

2010-01-09T20:26:00.000-08:00

The irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time & having the wrong person when the time is right & finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. Sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them, just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again.

For some, letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much & the other was being loved too little. We all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that is the reason why the heart is not always right.

So here's a piece of advice: Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love isn't enough, and move on when things are not like before.

-Anonymous

The New Years Resolution thing has been quite a let-down to most people...

2010-01-02T21:51:00.000-08:00

... and also myself so I'm not going to have any! Haha!

I prefer to tackle one thing at a time rather than dream on many you know?

I believe most of you have heard about people being the Jack of all trades and master of none and

am.

sick.

of.

being.

Jack.

So this year, I've decided to be a master of a skill!

After taking in much thought about it, I have decided to master in... COOKING!

I acted on that decision by attempting to make my first meat balls / patty for supper just now and pan-fried them. It was divine!

I mixed ground beef with tons of onion and garlic and also with a portion of tapioca flour with Korma powder (a type of curry powder. Not the reddish one but more of greyish), kneaded them thoroughly, shaped them and pan fried them! Easy stuff and most definitely delicious. :)

Faithfully yours. ♥

Spring Collection 2010

2010-01-02T20:57:00.000-08:00

Photos taken off Elle.com

Yves Saint Lauren never fails to impress. He's insanely good with fabric-play! I took a quite browse through his Spring collection and was entirely bewitched! Not so much from Louis Vuitton but Miu Miu has done a few mind-blowing pieces. I'll let the pictures of a few of my favorites do the talking.

Yves Saint Lauren

I like what he did to the fabric there to create a more structured look. I think he overdid it on that dress. It would be great if it was just one of that paperfanlookingthing over an asymmetrical one-shouldered white dress. I like artsy.

Very yummy!

Really like what he did to the sleeves there!

Add movement to a pencil skirt.

*drool drool*

Miu Miu

No one can deny how cleverly done the top is.

View more Spring collections from various designers at Elle.com!

Year 2010. Day 1.

2010-01-01T19:07:00.001-08:00

New look for a new year!

Took me longer than I expected for such a simple layout (I snagged the html majeegoo from Blogger itself as I'm still trying to figure out how to use Dreamweaver. Oh how I miss the faultful MS Frontpage). Did the title picture on Photoshop in less than 30 minutes. The realigning and recoloring took quite a while but hey, the result looks great!

Simplicity is the classiest way to go, is it not? :)

Hmm... so yes. Proper update.

A) I'd be taking 4 classes next semester (which starts in 2 days!). 4 lab courses. Suicidal indeed. :(

i) Anatomy

ii) Biology

iii) Physics

iv) Chemistry

v) English <-- I've already made up my mind to drop English because the essays would really kill. And English during the Summer sounds more plausible.

I did relatively well in my final exam. Not at all satisfying but it's still good and I'm thankful for what I've gotten. Not so much for Math though. Don't even ask. :(

B) My "want" list is unbelievably long but I shouldn't really be spending more money. Garrr I need a job! I don't really want to be spending so much of my parent's money. I hate being so dependent on them. For food and lodging, for education... sigh. I sometimes wish I was easily contented with what I have. Just t-shirt and jeans and not all that gaga about dresses you know? I've toned down a lot when it comes to being materialistic but I still am, really, a girl after all.

C) I've been working out lately. Just light weights and the usual essential moves, nothing too hardcore. Concentrating on the abs and back muscles mostly. NO cardio stuff as I'm still underweight but maybe I should jog every once in a while just for fun. Don't get me wrong, I do fit into my clothes pretty well just that I've been having urges to not only eat healthy but to carry out healthy activities lately. I want to look great for my future spouse for more number of years so I figured why not I start now?

D) My bike is still grey and not pink (or deep red after giving it much thought) and I think it's best it stays this way. It's a vintage Raleigh girl bike and has all the original stickers and such. In order to repaint the bike, the bike has to be taken apart and then spray-painted on with the desired color. The gear mechanism for my bike is quite complex and it's really hard to find spare-parts for a bike like that these days so taking it apart would risk bringing damage to it and I'm not at all willing to take the risk! So grey it is. :) It will soon have a white basket and a rat-trap for useful purposes. Really cannot wait to ride it during spring!

E) Dad's visit to Canada has been great. I really miss him a lot and it's really unfair how Mom only gets to see him once a year. I think being separated by distance from your other half would be the worst feeling anyone can feel. It takes so much trust, so much work and so much pure Love to make things work. Especially for married couples. Change is good but also hard and the hardest part of change is accepting it and embracing it optimistically. That's where most of us fail. All we can do is to take each step in faith trusting in God's provision. Easier said than done.

There's just too much to update about but I really can't be bothered now, sorry!

Faithfully yours. ♥

Hey Ho Let's Go

2009-12-31T18:42:00.000-08:00

So I've been looking into skin-care products lately. Reason being most guys I know are really against me using makeup or at least they say I don't need it. Well not only me but most girls don't need it (there are of course exceptions to people with scars that they may want to hide) as girls these days have relatively good skin. Flawless no, but good, yes.

Anway, I've been diligently using Kose's Medicated Sekkisei toner and my skin has never felt greater! It gently moisturizes and leaves such a clean (not the dry kind of clean with your normal bar of soap) feel. This product-line was launched in May 16, 1985 and in my opinion, if a product has been on the market for 24 years with the least complains, it HAS to be good!

"This is a lotion containing the extracts of Oriental plants that has kept its popularit after becoming a medicinal product".

I ordered online via some random website but it was a good deal! All and about $50 TOPS including shipping. Took ages to arrive though. :( So yes! Kose is a good brand.

Another good brand would be DHC. A very well known brand in Taiwan and Japan! I've been looking high and low for a skin-care product which has relatively good amount of coenzyme Q-10 because okay let me copy it off the website.

"Q10 Milk

Vitamin Q. If you’re interested in an age-fighting ingredient that will help your skin attain a firmer and smoother look and feel, it’s time to add products utilizing transformative coenzyme Q10 to your daily skincare routine. Bring moisture and suppleness back while scavenging free radicals on your skin's surface with this milky gel moisturizer, perfect for daytime use. Texture: Light milky gel"

I think I'm going to get 2 bottles from Taiwan (it's only $30 each bottle!) and use it as a moisturizer after my toner. It fits all skin types too!

Now, I'm just looking for a good eye cream. I know I'm still what... 19 and I'm already worrying about my skin aging. If I were a Caucasian chic heck i wouldn't be worried in the slightest. But you see, I'm Asian. Trust me. When an asian woman starts sagging her face off, it's as nasty as nasty can get. Say bye to high cheeks and alluring eyes. The second the sagging begins, it's Mayday. We asians do a bad sagging job unlike the Caucasians. Face-wise though. Yay for small boobs! Fellow small boobians can still make love at an older age without giving out a grotesque image to the opposite sex. Now isn't that a blessing?

I must say I'm really happy have a well defined cheekbone and also square jaws (Chen Hui too!). Hopefully the sagging won't be as bad. Did you know that some men have a fetish for square jaws? I've asked some guys and it seems true! Here's the scientific facts! Read about it here and here!

Back to the topic. Yes skin.

I ripped this off http://www.shesaid.com.au/article.aspx?n=77899250 so enjoy!

20s

This is when your skin should look its best - so enjoy your prime time while it lasts, girls!

* The first signs of ageing can start to appear in the late 20s if you've been out in the sun a lot, haven't had a good skincare regime, or have very dry skin.

* Sometimes neglect of the skin or the use of products designed for older skin, or the pill can result in acne at this time.

* If freckles or brown spots appear they're probably your first encounter with sun damage. These are removable, however. See your dermatologist about the best method and wear suncreen and stay out of the sun.

* Skin allergies and rashes can show up in your 20s too - and are often caused by detergents, insecticides, stress, using many cosmetics and fragrances and a change in diet such as trying new foods.

30s

This is the time when most women are at their most beautiful, as though they've 'grown into' their looks.

* This is the time when you have to take steps to guard against skin drying out and causing premature ageing. You should change your skincare routine to one formulated for more mature skins as you'll find that, say, the moisturiser that worked well in your 20s may be too light.

* And just when many of us thought the acne thing was behind us in our teens, it turns up again for many in our 30s. It usually appears in the 'hormonal zone' around the chin, jaw and neck.

* Women who have had dry skin all their lives will by now have noticed lines around their eyes.

Bags may also appear, which could be caused by fluid from sinus or allergy problems. Antihistamines can help in these cases. * Broken blood vessels, due to skin damage from pregnancy, high blood pressure, or excess alcohol, may begin to show around the nose and on the cheeks. These can be 'zapped' by a beauty therapist, though it may take a few visits to remove them completely.

40s

With all the great products and treatments we have at our fingertips we can extend our youthful looks longer.

* At this age the skin is beginning to lose its tone and strength - it finds it difficult to support the pores, and they start becoming more visible and become enlarged. Skin refining lotions and astringents such as witchhazel will help temporarily.

* Yet another variety of acne - acne rosacea - often appears during this time. This is aggravated by stress, alcohol, spicy foods and extremes of hot and cold temperatures. It has a flushed appearance with blackheads and small pustules and can by treated by a dermatologist.

* Psoriasis also, although it can occur at any age, is most likely to appear now, its round red patches flecked with silvery scales showing first on elbows and knees.

50+

No matter how well you're skin's been looked after, or how lucky your genetic inheritance has been, the skin will by now begin to show its age.

* It is no longer receiving sufficient support and elasticity from the protein fibres, and the fatty deposits beneath the skin are disappearing, leaving it loose and flabby.

* Lines deepen into wrinkles, the skin dries and the drying skin itself becomes a problem, sometimes with side effects such as itching, slowness to heal, and a tendency to become infected.

* Little clusters of red lines called spider angiomata may appear, as may brown spots.

* Deterioration in skin colour is often due to poor circulation and may be improved with massage and exercise.

* Most serious of all, this is the time when skin cancer usually appears.

Happy New Year Eberrybody. :)

My year has been GREAT and I hope next year would be greater!

Past.

2009-12-30T02:08:00.000-08:00

It's hard to ignore feelings that aren't meant to be there when you read things you don't want to read isn't it?

It's also hard to suppress curiosity for one's past.

Especially for ones that matter. A lot.

Perhaps the things we read that makes us really upset sometimes...

the kind of upset that makes your throat weigh a billion pounds,

isn't at all what we think it is.

Maybe it's just us, trying to find a double meaning to the simplest things.

Trying to fool ourselves.

That all that we know this whole while...

were just partial truths.

The more you think there's nothing more to it,

the more your throat feels heavy.

The more your heart weighs.

I choose to believe.

Mind over the heart.

Now doesn't that sound

like an equation for a strong person?

I am now in...

2009-09-18T22:57:00.001-07:00

Duncan! Whoo~
I'm at The Knoll House by Shawnigan Lake, Cowichan and I'm having a blast so far!
I just wanted to post coz there's actually internet here when there's no phone signal! :S!

Laters!

I think this is how Life sounds like.

2009-09-15T23:36:00.000-07:00

How could I have not seen You?

2009-09-10T21:17:00.000-07:00

I sometimes wish I could see God in everything I see, everything I do...

I think it is a gift...

I have yet to have.

I wish I could see God in our Love.

I wish I could see God in our Suffering.

I wish I could see God in our Happiness.

I'm still waiting.

Please don't be long.

Back to school.

2009-09-09T21:44:00.001-07:00

So... school has started.

Summer has passed too fast.

Somebody please give it back to me.

I miss the Sun, the adventures, the fun...

I am so not looking forward to the oh-so-rainy-gloomy-and-cold Autumn and my fully packed schedule all the way till Christmas. :(

Bye Summer.

Bye All.

What I really want for my birthday.

2009-07-27T01:15:00.000-07:00

Makes me wonder what's up with pathetic looking chihuahuas getting unnecessary affection these days.

It's 1.18am now and I have Chemistry Lectures in a bit. Can't wait for dinner tonight! It's gonna be fancy and alcoholdified. Hehehe.

John Kerry

2009-07-19T15:41:00.000-07:00

John Kerry always reminded me of an ent.

talks like one too.

2009-07-08T11:04:00.000-07:00

sometimes when i think of you
i think you're perfect.

but that's not really true
i think it always

and every night i write to you
but just your name

at the top of the page
and i try so hard,

but there's nothing i could say
as perfect as you

and i try so hard because i know
you and beauty are the same

and all i ever wanted
was to make something beautiful,

so you would never let me be
lonely again.

July 07/09 E.T

A MUST WATCH. HAHAHAHAHA!

2009-06-24T20:48:00.001-07:00

Actual Analogies from High School Essays

2009-06-21T14:19:00.000-07:00

Actual Analogies from High School Essays
By Allen21. June 2009 01:30

Her face was a perfect oval, like a circle that had its two other sides gently compressed by a Thigh Master.

His thoughts tumbled in his head, making and breaking alliances like underpants in a dryer without Cling Free.

He spoke with the wisdom that can only come from experience, like a Guy who went blind because he looked at a solar eclipse without one of those boxes with a pinhole in it and now goes around the country speaking at high schools about the dangers of looking at a solar eclipse without one those boxes with a pinhole in it.

She grew on him like she was a colony of E. coli and he was room-temperature Canadian beef.

She had a deep, throaty, genuine laugh, like that sound a dog makes just before it throws up.

Her vocabulary was as bad as, like, whatever.

He was as tall as a six-foot-three-inch tree.

The revelation that his marriage of 30 years had disintegrated because of his wife's infidelity came as a rude shock, like a surcharge at a formerly surcharge-free ATM.

The little boat gently drifted across the pond exactly the way a bowling ball wouldn't

McBride fell 12 stories, hitting the pavement like a Hefty bag filled with vegetable soup.

From the attic came an unearthly howl. The whole scene had an eerie, surreal quality, like when you're on vacation in another city and Jeopardy comes on at 7:00 p.m. instead of 7:30.

Her hair glistened in the rain like nose hair after a sneeze.

Long separated by cruel fate, the star-crossed lovers raced across the grassy field toward each other like two freight trains, one having left Cleveland at 6:36 p.m. traveling at 55 mph, the other from Topeka at 4:19 p.m. at a speed of 35 mph

They lived in a typical suburban neighborhood with picket fences that resembled Nancy Kerrigan's teeth.

John and Mary had never met. They were like two hummingbirds who had also never met.

He fell for her like his heart was a mob informant and she was the East River.

Even in his last years, Grandpappy had a mind like a steel trap, only one that had been left out so long, it had rusted shut.

Shots rang out, as shots are wont to do.

The plan was simple, like my brother-in-law Phil. But unlike Phil, this plan just might work

The young fighter had a hungry look, the kind you get from not eating for a while.

"Oh, Jason, take me!"; she panted, her breasts heaving like a college freshman on $1-a-beer night.

He was as lame as a duck. Not the metaphorical lame duck, either, but a real duck that was actually lame. Maybe from stepping on a land mine or something.

The knife was as sharp as the tone used by Rep. Sheila Jackson Lee (D-Tex.) in her first several points of parliamentary procedure made to Rep. Henry Hyde (R-Ill.) in the House Judiciary Committee hearings on
the impeachment of President William Jefferson Clinton.

The ballerina rose gracefully en pointe and extended one slender leg behind her, like a dog at a fire hydrant.

It was an American tradition, like fathers chasing kids around with power tools.

He was deeply in love. When she spoke, he thought he heard bells, as if she were a garbage truck backing up.

She was as easy as the TV Guide crossword.

Her eyes were like limpid pools, only they had forgotten to put in any pH cleanser.

She walked into my office like a centipede with 98 missing legs.

Her voice had that tense, grating quality, like a generation thermal paper fax machine that needed a band tightened.

It hurt the way your tongue hurts after you accidentally staple it to the wall.

The hailstones leaped from the pavement, just like maggots when you fry them in hot grease.

Awesome Junk!

2009-06-16T21:43:00.000-07:00

I don't want to feel too happy.

2009-05-31T21:21:00.000-07:00

I really shouldn't be blogging but I guess everyone here deserves an update.

Post title?

You know how the Chinese say "If you're happy, don't be too happy. If you're sad, don't be too sad."

100% reality and truth. Based on my past experiences, when something REALLY happy happens, something REALLY bad is bound to follow up not long after.

Think about it.

Strange isn't it?

I'd get back to preparing for my Lab Exam tomorrow and finish off those 3 take-home quizzes.

Also, I'm really considering putting a password for my blog because I really feel that I have to blog more personal stuff that only certain people have access too. So much buildup inside. Maybe I should get Wordpress or something.

I Miss so many people now. I think that heavy spot to the left of my chest where that beating thing used to be is just a mushed up piece of muscle now. It hurts.

Last but not least, Fuck Period. Making me so emotional. It's about time it gives us girls a break and go haunt the guys a bit. Where is the fairness?

❥ Love!

Never ever lick an envelope!

2009-05-23T23:13:00.002-07:00

So my Mom forwards these weird-ass mails to me and a bunch of others. Here goes.

One day a lady licked the envelopes and postage stamps
instead of using a sponge. That very day the lady found a
cut on her tongue. A week later, she noticed an abnormal
swelling on her tongue. She went to the doctor, and they
found nothing wrong. Her tongue was not sore or anything. A
couple of days later, her tongue started to swell more, and
it began to get really sore, so sore, that she could not
eat. She went back to the hospital, and demanded something
to be done. The doctor took an x-ray of her tongue and
noticed a lump. He prepared her for minor surgery. When the
doctor cut her tongue open, a live cockroach crawled out!!!!

There were cockroach eggs on the seal of the envelope. The
egg was able to hatch inside of her tongue, because of her
saliva. It was warm and moist.

This is a true story reported on CNN.

Andy Hume wrote:

Hey, I used to work in an envelope factory. You
wouldn't believe the things that float around in those
gum applicator trays. I haven't licked an envelope for
years. I used to work for a print shop (32 years ago) and we
were told NEVER to lick the envelopes. I never understood
why until I had to go into storage and pull out 2500
envelopes that were already printed and saw several squads
of cockroaches roaming around inside a couple of boxes with
eggs everywhere. They eat the glue on the envelopes.

S.i.c.k.

❥ Love!

I am Who I Am and Who I Am is A Lot.

2009-05-19T22:21:00.000-07:00

I am Who I Am and Who I Am is A Lot.

❥ Love!

New Playlist!

2009-05-17T19:02:00.000-07:00

Check it out (and i mean listen to the WHOLE Playlist before you judge my music taste. Actually, those are the girly and mild picks. I do have harder stuff but nah. Not blog material. :) )!

Enjoy!

Would love some feedbacks too!

❥ Love!

Summer Checklist!

2009-05-16T23:13:00.000-07:00

1. Bike in a skirt / dress.

2. Hike up a big-ass mountain / hill and take tons of photos.

3. Row a boat and explore The Dodgy-looking Island.

4. Eat Mexican, Italian, Japanese (the real shizz) and Greek.

5. Build a classic sandcastle with a moat around it.

6. Get this guy! :)

❥ Love!

Are you an Online Shopper? Go Cute and Unique Zis' Summer!

2009-05-13T18:47:00.000-07:00

So I stumbled upon this webby while doing my daily online screen-shopping. Hahaha!

http://fredflare.com/

Here are some of their stuff!

Where's Wally Shirt. They even colored Wally to help with the search. Hahaha!

Earphones?

Yesterday's News Colored Pencils!

Super Big Speakers! Hahaha!

iPod speakers!

Chinese Laundry's Birdcage heels

Awesome Pendant!

Forget me knot ring!

Umbrellas

HAHA! Buddha Umbrella. :S!

And many other cute stuff!
Check it out!

❥ Love!

2009-05-04T23:30:00.000-07:00

So dun dun dun dun...

Undergraduate Course Work with Grades Assigned
CRN	Subject	Course	Section	Course Title	Campus	Final Grade	Unit Value	Awarded Units
20849	CSC	110	A01	FUNDAMENTAL PROGRAMING:I	Main	A-	1.500	1.500
24641	CHEM	231	A01	INTRO ORGANIC CHEMISTRY	Main	B	1.500	1.500

Hideous.

Despite all hideousness, I still Thank You, God. Thank You for being so gracious to me. It totally could've been so much worse. :P

Summer classes just started today. I've got John Lee (I KNOW RIGHT?!) as my CHEM101 teacher. He's hip, dresses nicely and does not have a monotonous voice which is good news for me! He will mos' def' rekindle my passion for Chemistry (not that i have any to begin with. :( ). He blew up some stuff today in our super small lecture room and I helped out with some demo! I am totally gonna rock zis' shizz' coz I've done all of these in A-Levels already! Sucks that I got a D for Chem. It really does! Else, i'd be doing CHEM 235 now. ohhhh well. At least this will boost up my GPA! So far, my GPA is 6/9. Good enough for Dentistry but not good enough for me! I will do better and better and better and i shall, by the end of this 3 years, be a COOL geek. Whoo~

I'd be singing (Yes, believe it or not) this Mother's Day at our church's mini concert! I actually plan to play the guitar and sing at the same time coz the song Jared Anderson - Rescue (it's a super good song, trust me. Emo to the maxidified max though) sounds waaay better with acoustic guitar rather with the piano as a backup. Hmm... what else? OH! A certain someone is singing a Spice Girl song at that mini concert. The one that goes "Mama, I Love You. Mama, I Care. Mama, I Love You. Mama, My Friend." (I bet most of you are going OHHHHHH THAT SONG! :| ... :( ).

I went to The Place for worship on Sunday night with Chris and my brother. It was really good! I really feel connected with God again. I've drifted so far apart from Him. It's really bad but sigh... I really don't know. I am stuck in the middle. This is definitely one of the areas I really need prayers on. Pray that I will find favor in God's sight and that I can be as close to Him as I was before. I really miss Him, His presence. Also, it's really hard to worship when you're always the one playing the piano, leading people to worship. I mean you do worship that way but... it's really hard to describe. I'm sure most of God's servants have felt this way before especially those serving in Church. Who is gonna lead the piano player to worship? Who is gonna preach to the pastor so he/she will grow? That kinda thing.

Also pray for all the other people living in this world who hasn't heard or believed in Jesus especially those close to our hearts. It hurts doesn't it? Knowing how much of God's love and embrace they are missing out. Knowing how much better their life is worth living knowing God is out ahead of them, making their rocky paths less rocky.

❥ Love!

2009-05-01T23:35:00.000-07:00

If the whole universe has no meaning, we should never have found out that it has no meaning: just as, if there were no light in the universe and therefore no creatures with eyes, we should never know it was dark. Dark would be without meaning.

C.S. Lewis

A Woman (pirated off Soph!)

2009-04-29T01:30:00.000-07:00

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....

something perfect to wear if the employer,
or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..

a youth she's content to leave behind....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to
retelling it in her old age....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .....

a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....

a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
and a recipe for a meal,
that will make her guests feel honored...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

a feeling of control over her destiny...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

how to fall in love without losing herself..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend without;
ruining the friendship...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

that she can't change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

that her childhood may not have been perfect...but it's over...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.. .

whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't take it personally...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table..
or a charming Inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

What she can and can't accomplish in a day...
a month...and a year...

So THIS dress is haunting me. Sigh. CAD$40!

2009-04-28T23:37:00.000-07:00

Uber Cool Shoelace Combos!

2009-04-27T21:01:00.000-07:00

And out of the beats of tomorrow

Tell me what beat fills the night.

❥ Love!

Putting off my finger.

2009-04-23T20:39:00.000-07:00

I really dislike blogging you know?
It's like... gossiping about yourself. Yes No?
Unless you start ranting or gossip about other people but honestly? I think that's rather lame. Occasional rants are forgivable. :)

First off, I kissed the Winter/Spring semester goodbye today! Did my last paper (Computer Science) and dang! It was hell. I sure hope I ace it. I have no reason to not get an A (Haha! So Asian). Chemistry went pretty good! I seriously hope it brings my average up.
I'd be saying Hello to Summer school pretty soon and sigh. I really want to travel. Not stuck in Uni in the Summer. I don't care if campus looks pretty in the Summer. I! Want! Out!
Our church may organize a camping trip to Saltspring Island this Summer and I'm sooo looking forward to it! :D

You know... it's strange how I never appreciate the Sun back Home until I experience what it really is to be freezing my goosebumps off outside when I underdress for the weather. In fact, I have never been fond of the Sun until now! So damn scorching hawt back Home okays. But here, the best feeling you can ever ask for is getting scorching hot Sun rays at 14 degrees. Such perfect warmness. No wind of course. The wind just kills. Everything.

So I've been driving. Both Automatic & Standard! Getting soo used to left-hand drives now! Standard is such a pain in the buttocks! It's really tricky how you have to put equal force on both the clutch pedal and gas pedal in opposite directions. If you don't get it right, you end up making embarrassing screeching tyre sounds or stall and kill the car. SO. Blahdee. Embarrassing. I will stuff my nose in that horrid orange book and sit for that bugging law test zis' Summer so I can get my L.

I've been shopping quiiiite a bit too. Hehe. I've got some awesome tops (triple the price they would cost in Brunei... not cool). But they're really one of a kind so I guess it's fine. I've got some AWESOME shorts that fit perfectly (which is so rare)! A Jacob's, Levi's and Bluenotes! Will take some picture with me in them soon. Gah! You know. I kinda lost my vain-ness here. Which is a good thing I guess. :P

I'm also planning on working at the Dental Clinic this Summer to gain some experience. Virginia already made her first denture and I was SO JEALOUS when I saw that picture of her holding her first piece of science-art. :( Ya. I is geek. So what? Hahaha! I really have passion for Dentistry. I really do. I really want it. So badly.

Today is special. And weird. And tiring.
I was walking with Elliot and we came across this random cardboard box near the library on the grass. He lifted it up and there stood the cutest white BABY rabbit with an apple core not far from it. WITH IT'S BELLY SLICED OPEN with bits of guts dangling outside. He said probably a hawk tried to grab it but ended up dropping it and I guess someone put the box over it so it won't die from the chill. I felt so sad. We went back coz I wanted to paste a Post-It saying "Baby Rabbit In Need Of URGENT Help! :(" on the box to attract attention which was exactly what I did. The box was gone few hours later. I hope some kind soul brought it to the vet. Or gave it a proper burial. Sigh. My Uni is doing some thorough Rabbit cleaning-up so now there's soo few rabbits left in Uni. :( I can't find my favorite rabbit anymore! It's dirty white with dark brown shade and a super dark brown nose like a Koala. Frickin' Animal Control people. Take away the common rabbits and leave the rare ones alone! :(:(

I severely can't wait for Summer. Comfy clothes, flip-flops.. mmm... :)

Well I may be just a fool

But I know you're just as cool

And cool kids, they belong together

❥ Love!

2009-04-02T20:22:00.000-07:00

I have to disconnect from my life for a bit peeps.
I'm doing fine, don't worry!
I shall update soon (meaning a long while).
I really miss you all so much but yeah it's just one of those things I have to do to set my life straight and get things sorted out.

OOH~ For those who like music, check out The Unicorns! They are... The. Atom. Bomb. Too bad they broke up but 2 of their members are in Island now. so yeah. mmkay! I'm out!

❥ Love!

PSYCHEDELICITY!

2009-02-24T15:47:00.000-08:00

I LOVE THIS VIDEO SEVERELY MUCH! Especially the zebra bit. Genius!

BBC Radio 4: Science Fiction Season Advert

2009-02-23T11:29:00.000-08:00

Efff... I knew something was wrong when that old man's face stayed for too long. The hell BBC.

I lust with my little eyes...

2009-02-23T00:13:00.000-08:00

Just thought I'd sneak in a post before I sleep.

I WANT THIS SO BADLY!!!

well not the whole set, silly.

Just the

Cashmere Boyfriend Cardigan

by Club Monaco.

I haven't had the time to pop in there to really check it out and I'm kinda stuck in-between the decision of getting it or you know... walk away like what I usually do ever since I started saving for my UK trip (WHICH IS TAKING AGES... grr!)

Also, the cardigan costs a wee bit... *cough* over $100 *cough*

Damn the materialistic me!

I'm also considering getting a new phone coz my phone is staring to act up sometimes.

I need money which leads to I need job which leads to I need a food safe certificate which leads to THIS SATURDAY! whee~!

I miss so many people right now.

Some I miss sickeningly much to the extent of feeling my heart hurt.

SIGH.

❥ Love!

2009-02-21T23:41:00.000-08:00

I am busy and will stay that way till Tuesday! Computer Science assignment (mostly), bible study, worship practice, grocery shopping and yada yada yada. Till then loyal readers. ;)

❥ Love!

Tagged by Wendy

2009-02-18T08:25:00.000-08:00

1. Put your iTunes/mp3 player/Cellphone etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Write the name of the song, regardless of however weird :D
4. Tag some friends who might enjoy doing this.

Here We Go :

IF SOMEONE SAY "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Feeling Good - Muse

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Square One - Coldplay (HAHAHA!!! Square. :) )

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I Know What Are You But What Am I? - Mogwai (the what?!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Fuck Her Gently - Tenacious D (oh EWWW!!!)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Kids Will Be Skeletons - Mogwai (HAHAHAHAHAHA!)

DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Monsoon - Jack Johnson (:S)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Witches On The Heath - Buckethead (no... comment. :D )

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Broken Bricks - The White Stripes

WHAT IS 2+2?
Incomplete - Switchfoot (wow... deep.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Something To Sleep To - Michelle Branch (uhhh....)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Get Up, Get On It - Delinquent Habits (OMAGAD! *slaps ipod in the virtual face*

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
This Is My Own - Shadows Fall

DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
In Your World - Muse ( :D )

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I Never Met A Woman - Los Lonely Boys (

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Amateur Lovers - Switchfoot

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Stray Cat Strut - Stray Cats (yah. and force everyone to wear cat costumes and strut in sync.)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
On A Day Like Today - Keane (man. this song just turned sadder.)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Up Against The Wall - Peter Bjorn and John (:O )

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Red Light - U2 (ooh ooh ooh ;) )

WHAT'S THE WORSE THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Hollow Man - R.E.M (I remember when the movie got me so freaked out)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Dreamin' - Weezer (oh AWESOME!)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Sexy Mexican Maid - Red Hot Chili Peppers (no it's not what you think)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Hard Fucking - Tenacious D (HAHAHAHAHAHA!)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Every You Every Me - Placebo (sigh)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
We Are Beautiful, We Are Doomed - Los Campesinos! (partially true)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Mosquito Song - Queens Of The Stoneage

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Lie To Me - Silvershair (HAHA!)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Sitting Sideways - Lupe Fiasco

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
The Real Me - The Who (wow.)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Make This Go On Forever - Snow Patrol (oh hell no!)

❥ Love!

Medicine v.s Dentistry (Requirements)

2009-02-18T00:14:00.000-08:00

Okay. Compared prerequisite subjects for both courses and the only difference is this:-
- Dentistry needs first year Physics
- Medicine needs 2 ENGLISH LITERATURE subjects (ugh!!)

Medicine

- Academic standing, including overall
academic average based on all university-
level courses attempted, average on the
most recent 30.0 units, prerequisite average
at time of application, and MCAT score.
Please note that UBC will only take the
original grade if a passed course has been
repeated. A failed grade and a subsequent
passing grade will be averaged. Th e
minimum academic standing required for
admission is 70% (5.0 GPA on UVic’s 9.0
grading scale) based on all university-level
courses attempted.

- Non-academic criteria, including: an
auto-biographical essay, report of non-
academic experiences, a panel interview
(when oﬀ ered), and three references
(when requested)

Dentistry

- Applicants must have an overall average
for ALL university/college work (including
failed courses) of at least 70% or 2.8 on
a 4.0 grading scale (approximately 4.25
GPA on UVic’s 9.0 grading scale).

- All applicants must take the Canadian
Dental Association Dental Aptitude Test
(DAT) prior to the November application
deadline. DAT scores are valid for a period
of ﬁve years.

Now now, why on earth is Medicine so sought after compared to Dentistry?

❥ Love!

The Day The Penis Asked For A Raise. (I stumbled upon this somewhere and I just HAD to post it for Sabby to read. It's so her type. ;) )

2009-02-15T16:03:00.000-08:00

I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the
following reasons:
I do physical labour.
I work at great depths.
I plunge headfirst into everythign I do.
I do not get weekends or public holidays off.
I work in a damp environment.
I work in dark workplace that has poor ventilation.
I work in high temperatures.
My work exposes me to contagious diseases.
Sincerely,

P.Niss

The Response~
Dear Penis:
After assessing your request, and considering the arguements you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons:
You do not work 8 hours straight.
You fall asleep after brief work periods.
You do not always follow the orders of the management team. YOU DO NOT STAY IN YOUR DESIGNATED AREA AND ARE OFTEN SEEN VISITING OTHER LOCATIONS.
You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working.
You leave the workplace rather messt atthe end of your shift.
You dont always observe necessary safety regulations, such as wearing the Correct protective clothing.
You will retire well before you are 65.
You are unable to work double shifts.
YOU SOMETIMES LEAVE YOUR DESIGNATED WORK AREA BEFORE YOU AHVE COMPLETED THE ASSIGNED TASK...
And if that were not all, you have been seen constantly entering and exiting the workplace carrying two suspicious looking bags.
Sincerely,

V.Gina

❥ Love!

You know you are dumb when... (DUDE, I SERIOUSLY HAVE TO STOP POSTING THESE STUFF. hahaha!)

2009-02-14T17:00:00.000-08:00

Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.
Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
You have ran into a glass/screen door.
You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird
looks.

You have ran into a tree.
It IS possible to lick your elbow
You just tried to lick your elbow.
You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same
rhythm. (Baa Baa Black Sheep does too!)
You just tried to sing them.
You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
You have choked on your own spit.
You have seen the the Matrix and still don’t get it.
You didn’t notice that in the last question “the” was spelled twice
You just looked at it.
Your hair is blonde/dirty blonde.
People have called you slow.

You have accidentally caught something on fire
You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes/cheek.
You have caught yourself drooling.
You’ve fallen asleep in class
If someone says “fart” you laugh.
You just laughed.

Sometimes you just stop thinking. (I'm not allowed to think! LOL)
You tell a story and forget what you were talking about
People are often shaking their heads and walking away from you
You are often told to use your “inside voice”.
You use your fingers to do simple math. (Sometimes)

You have eaten a bug.
You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn’t realize it
You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand or
pocket

You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will
happen to you if you don’t even when you know it won’t happen to you.
You break a lot of things.
Your friends know not to use big words around you
You have fallen out of your chair before
When you’re laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the
ceiling

❥ Love!

Well well, how white are you now? hahaha

2009-02-14T16:46:00.000-08:00

British
You drink a lot of tea.
You know what a brolly is.
Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
Fish and Chips are yummy. (Can't mark that one for I never ate one.)
You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
It's football...not soccer.

Australian
You wear flip flops all year.
You call flipflops thongs, not flip flops.
You love a backyard barbie.
You know a barbie is not a doll.
You love the beach.
Sometimes you swear without realizing.
You're a sports fanatic.
You are tanned.
You're a bit of a bogan.
You have an Australian something.

Italian
The Sopranos is a great show.
Your last name ends in a vowel. (Only on my mother's last name that I have.)
Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
You know how a real meatball tastes.
You know Italian songs.
You have dark hair and dark eye color.
You speak some Italian.
You are under 5'10''
You know what a Italian horn is.
Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!
You talk with your hands.

Spanish
You say member instead of Remember.
You speak spanish or some. (DUH! Spanish is my native language!)
You like tacos.
YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
You are dark skinned.
You know what a Puta is.
You talk fast occasionally.
You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
You know what platanos are.

Russian
You say villian as: Vee-lon.
You get short tempered.
You know of somebody named Natasha.
You don't get cold easily.
Rain is fun for you.
You get into contests all the time.
You can easily make do with the cold weather.

Irish
You think beer is the best.
You have a bad temper.
Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
You have blue or green eyes.
You like the color green.
You have been to a st. pattys day party.
You have a family member from Ireland.
You have hair everywhere.
You have/had freckles.
Your family get-togethers always include drinking and singing.

African American
You say ni#*a/nukka casually.
You have nappy hair.
You like rap.
You know how to shoot a gun.
You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
You like chicken.
You like watermelon.
You can dance.
You refer to people as 'dawg' or 'homie'.
You can 'sing' gospel.

Asian
You have slanty/small eyes.
You like rice a lot.
You are good at math.
You play/have played the piano.
You have family from Asia.
You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
Most people think you're chinese.
You call hurricanes typhoons.
You go to Baulko.

German
You like bread.
You think German Chocolate is good.
You speak some German.
You know what Schnitzel is.
You went to pre-school.
You're over 5'2.
You like Limburger cheese.

Canadian
You like/play/played hockey.
You love beer.
You say "Eh". A lot.
You know what poutine is.
You speak some French. (Je parle un peu francais!)
You love Tim Horton's.
At one point you lived in a farm house.
You watch/watched Degrassi.

American
You hate foriegners.
You hate non-Christians.
You're lazy.
You are not cultured.
You hate abortion.
But love the penalty.
You don't read.
You shop at Wal-Mart.
You think this survey is rather biased.

❥ Love!

Costco!

2009-02-14T11:47:00.000-08:00

Chap Goh Meh's full moon. It was a perfect circle!

Fried Kuay Teow. Haven't had these in ages. Thanks mum!

Kiki's suit and white boots as promised. :)

You know you are Asian if... you shop at Costco! It's this bigass shop where things are sold in bulk at a reasonable price since it's in bulks.

Left hand drive

Yes yes, look like poop. Better than nothing right?

Happy Valentine's Day!

❥ Love!

2009-02-13T21:21:00.000-08:00

So there's this group on Facebook called "Pictures Taken At Exactly the Right Time".

I teared.

❥ Love!

MORE! Hahaha!

2009-02-11T22:02:00.000-08:00

YOU KNOW YOU ARE JAPANESE IF...
1. You're obsessed with your hair, your car, and your clothes
2. You want to marry a Korean American or Chinese American woman
(males); or you want to marry a white guy (females).
3. You're afraid of black people.
4. You know you are superior to all other Asians.

YOU KNOW YOU ARE KOREAN IF...
1. You smoke and drink too much.
2. You've got a bottle of Kimchi in your fridge.
3. You're afraid of black people.
4. You know you are superior to all other Asians.

YOU KNOW YOU ARE CHINESE IF...
1. You think you're the smartest people in the world.
2. You have a pager and cellular phone with you at all times.
3. Today's steamed rice is tomorrow's fried rice.
4. You're afraid of black people.
5. You know you are superior to all other Asians.

YOU KNOW YOU ARE VIETNAMESE IF...
1. You eat at restaurants that have "Pho" on their signboards.
2. You have some relative who is Chinese.
3. You're afraid of black people.
4. You know you are superior to all other Asians.

YOU KNOW YOU ARE FILIPINO IF...
1. You want to be a dancer, a singer, or an actor, even though you
have a job as a nurse, a security guard, or an accountant.
2. Some member of your family is a politician or a movie star.
3. You're not afraid of black people; in fact, you wish you were
black.
4. You don't care if you are superior to all other Asians or not,
because being Filipino is cool enough just by itself.

YOU KNOW YOU ARE THAI IF...
1. People offer to pay you for sex.
2. No matter what you eat, it's not greasy or spicy enough.
3. You're not afraid of black people, cause in some cases you're
scarier than they are.
4. You know in your heart you'll never be superior to all other
Asians, but you've learned to live with it.

YOU KNOW YOU ARE MALAYSIAN IF ...
1. You don't believe anything the newspapers tell you, but would
never say so in public.
2. The whole world (and George Soros) is out to destroy you and your
country.
3. You would never admit to being afraid of black people, because it
might disrupt racial harmony.
4. You don't think you are superior to other Asians, but your food,
culture, english, humor, etc is.

YOU KNOW YOU ARE SINGAPOREAN IF ...
1. You eat, sleep, smile and have sex according to Government
policy.
2. You don't think Lee Kuan Yew is a facist dictator.
3. Government policy is that you shouldn't be afraid of black
people so you aren't.
4. You know you are superior to all other Asians, cause the
Government says so.

❥ Love!

You know you're Asian when...

2009-02-11T21:27:00.000-08:00

You can completely blidfold your eyes with dental floss

Your grandparents store up lots of empty plastic containers and jars in your pantry for future left-over use

The sissors in your house are used for sewing, cutting fat off chicken, cutting your toenails, and gardening

You have 3 or more locks on your front door

You make fun of people that watch pro wrestling, only to go home and play the game on Playstation

Your White buddies tell you that if you shave your head and grow a goatee(sp?). You'd look just like that bad guy in all the martial arts movies

You think anime women are hot

You go clubbin, you all dance in a BIG circle

Your mother has a short-haired, curly perm

Your parents still tried to get you into places half-price saying you were 12 when you were really 15

You ask your parents help on one math problem and 2 hours later they're till lecturing

Your parents enjoy comparing you to their friends' kids.

Your parents say, "Don't forget your heritage.

You've learned to keep bargaining even if the prices are rock bottom.

Your parents say leaving rice in your bowl is a sin.

Your ancestors 1000 generations back invented the back scratcher.

You like $1.75 movies

You like $1.50 movies even more.

You learned about the birds and the bees from someone other than your parents

"You want a stereo!" When I was your age, I didn't even have shoes!!"

You have to call just about all your parent's friends "Auntie and Uncle."

Your parents simply cut the green/black part off the bread and say "Eat it anyway. It's still good."

You get nothing if you do well in school, but crapped on if you don't

When going to other peoples' houses, you always have to bring a gift.

The furniture in your house never matches the wallpaper, the carpet, the decorations or any of the rest of the furniture.

You have rocks, sticks, leaves and strange-smelling, unknown substances in your pantry for use as medicine.

You own a rice cooker

Your parents buy you clothes and shoes many sizes too big so you can "grow into it" and wear it for years to come."

You get a B+ and you are categorized as a failure

You get a C and are kicked out of your living quarters

You are continually reminded of the possibility of working at Mickey D's and mowing lawns

You have a little dangly pooh or other adorable little character, pokemon, hello kitty, transformers included

You know that Prince of Tennis is NOT the tennis company

Overfishing isn't depleting our oceans of fish, you are.

You have off-color printed screen tees from an Asian country with bad spelling

You understand that chopsticks are NOT for chopping although specializing them does result in weaponry. Seriously

Your car is usually a Honda (Acura included) or Toyota (Lexus and Scion included) of some sort.

People keep an incriminatingly large radius away from you when you are on the road

Your parents cannot grasp their minds around the fact that there is more than one way to a successful life than a super "high ranked" college.

You can draw crowds playing DDR at arcades or the movies

You know what "old asian lady" smells like

You've seen Mulan at least 2 times

You know Jackie Chan's, Bruce Lee's, and Jet Li's Chinese name

You do NOT play football unless its with the elementary schoolers

You've never heard of clothing that wasn't on sale.

Your parents always remind to you to eat some sort of food by which consumption you either 1. become smarter 2. become skinnier 3. grow taller 4. have good complexion, etc

You have at your disposal a plethora of emoticons: :) :( VO__OV )

You feel the need of taking off ur shoes when entering an abode

You go straight home to study after a test

You ask your dad for help on a simple math problem and spend the next 2 hours listening to a math lecture

Your family takes a million pictures everywhere you go

You're on the badminton team... because you're Asian

You play the violin and the piano

You automatically make the peace sign when someone looks at you with their camera

You take prodigious napkins from restaurants and ketchup packs from McDonalds or any other fast food joint

When you expose yourself to the sun and vitamin D, you turn into a different race

Your parents think that the entire job industry is made up of doctors, lawyers, or engineers

There is a sale on any item, you buy 100 of them

You never buy bin bags, but use your saved grocery bags for it.

You have a 'Singer Brother' sewing machine at home.

You hide everything from your parents.

You eat onions with everything.

You fight over who pays the dinner bill.

You secure your baggage with a rope.

When you were little you always wondered why your English friends waited until after breakfast to brush their teeth when you did it first thing in the morning

To your English friends, oil is used purely for cooking and not as a grooming aid

No one ever seems to call ahead of time to say they are coming over for a visit.

Your parents worry what other people will think if you're not going to be a doctor/ engineer.

Today's steamed rice is tomorrow's fried rice.

Your mom wears red lipstick.

You have woven mats in your house.

You have painful memories of the feather duster.

You mostly listen to rap, dance and techno music/songs.

Your relatives' houses smell either like mothballs or medicine.

Your non Asian friends ask you how to curse in your language, to curse to other Asians.

People start yelling Ni Ho Ma?

❥ Love!

I spy with my little eyes...

2009-02-09T14:49:00.000-08:00

Dinner

Blackie.

The Gorge.

Kiki. Haha. His fur looks like a suit. I'll take a photo of him stretching one day. He has white 'boots' too. :)

Turn left to house. Go straight to the bench by the gorge.

People here love dogs. Awesome! :)

Down the hill to the house. That's ours. :)

This dodgy looking van has been there for 2 months plus and it's stuffed with parking tickets. :S

Some church on Gorge Road.

The undecorated bigass christmas tree downtown.

City Hall. Sad no? Haha.

Oak Bay junction. Those houses look married. Hehe.

Oak Bay School. I take Bus No.11 to UVic everyday. That's 11 on the opposite side of the road heading towards UVic.

Near Uplands.

At Uplands. I didn't get to snap photos of those bigass mansions there. Will do in due time. :)

In the bus.

While waiting for the bus. In front of the Bookshop on the bench.

Hehe. Skinny jeans, Checkered Converse and pattern-ey white bag.

This is so classic! A seagull crossing the road instead of a chicken. The seagulls here are ginourmous.

Rabbits are considered a pest here coz there's just too many here! I love white rabbits though the brown ones are more common. This one froze when i snapped this photo. What a cute pest. :)

Downtown.

If this was Asia, instant Malaria.

❥ Love!

Kermit

2009-02-07T23:37:00.000-08:00

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"It's Not Easy Bein' Green" (lyrics by Joe Rapposo)

It's not that easy bein' green;
Having to spend each day the color of the leaves.
When I think it could be nicer being red, or yellow or gold-
or something much more colorful like that.

It's not easy bein' green.
It seems you blend in with so many other ordinary things.
And people tend to pass you over 'cause you're not standing out like flashy sparkles in the water- or stars in the sky.

But green's the color of Spring.
And green can be cool and friendly-like.
And green can be big like an ocean, or important like a mountain, or tall like a tree.

When green is all there is to be
It could make you wonder why, but why wonder why? Wonder,
I am green and it'll do fine, it's beautiful!
And I think it's what I want to be.

1969. New York. So much racial tension goin' on. So Jim Henson asks "what can we do to help kids feel better about all this racial stuff?"... How about Kermit accepting his own color in front of them? Subtle, deep... effecting, soothing. This is the earliest version. There is a more famous version. But this one - so raw - so careful to be true to the children...

The prototype Kermit was created from a green ladies' coat that Jim Henson's mother had thrown into a waste bin, and two ping pong balls for eyes.
Kermit sang this song at Jim Henson`s funeral.

On an episode of Extreme Makeover: Home Edition, Kermit commented to Ty Pennington, "You know, as a tadpole in the swamp, I had 3,265 brothers and sisters!" According to Kermit's Swamp Years, at the age of 12, he was the first of his siblings to leave the swamp, and one of the first frogs to talk to humans.

According to The Muppet Movie Kermit returned to the swamp, where a passing agent noted he had talent and, thus inspired, he headed to Hollywood, encountering the rest of the Muppets along the way. Together, they were given a standard "rich and famous" contract by Lew Lord of Wide World Studios and began their showbiz careers.

I wish Sesame Street bought over Kermit.

❥ Love!

2009-02-07T16:37:00.000-08:00

I AM SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW!!!

So I was doing the IQ test thing on Facebook and was trying to concentrate but a certain someone just couldn't stop singing!!! The singing was not one bit soothing to my ears and I have to say that it sounded way way off the original song. My ears were bleeding and they still are. I didn't manage to finish all the questions and ended up with a mere 115 on it. Worst off, I CAN'T RETAKE IT! Faggot.

Doing my Java assignment now and was doing it since Thursday. Have to read up on Arrays and Scanners coz my code simply won't compile! I seriously can't wait till this course finishes.

Dinner with Uncle Manfred tonight. It's gonna be full of good food and of course a bit of awkward silences.

❥ Love!

I hope you don't mind.

2009-02-07T12:07:00.001-08:00

Don't you just hate it when people you don't fancy and have been trying to flick off your life visit your blog ever-so-often just so they know of your whereabouts and what you've been up to? I happen to know exactly who visits my blog. Well well... what to do?

Love me, hate me, it's still an obsession. :)

Mum's out grocery shopping at Walmart now and I'm stuck at home trying to complete a billion Computer Science questions to help me ace this Midterm test this Thursday. Chem quiz on Friday and the topics are definitely getting tougher (but definitely easier than A-levels). I'm pretty worried about my how my course layout is gonna work. I think I'm gonna do some first year subjects in my second year. Sigh. My course schedule is so messed up coz a certain someone wanted me to enter Uni in January so badly and I missed the whole of Year 1's first semester. How awesome it'll be if I started Uni this September. Things will work out just fine. I'm so reluctant to go join The Navigators for lunch on Tuesday coz a part of me feels in need of friends but a bigger part of me feels happy to be what I am at the moment... an anti-social. Hahaha.

People here talk a lot of small talk and it's so ANNOYING! Small talk to me is like a big waste of saliva and the best for the birth of thirst. You know what's really sad? When people (99.9% girls) fake phonecalls on the bus. They talk REALLY loudly, laugh REALLY loudly and ALL of them seem to have the excessive-use-of-the-word-"like" disease. It's an epidemic! Faking phonecalls is the worst way to show off your phone, attract attention and a worser worst way to impress guys!

Ooh! Another thing that bugs me the most is the way how people idolize Gossip Girl so much to the extent of talking like the characters in that popular FICTIONAL series. Perfect example, "You know you love me, xoxo" and anything along those lines. It's also not cool to be a 'nice bitch'. If you don't mean your hugs and kisses, don't give it. If you don't mean your I Love You's, don't say it. I see too many of them two-faced around now and it hurts my eyes. Haha.

"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
- Dr. Seuss.

❥ Love!

2009-02-04T18:55:00.001-08:00

somehow

this feels so good

that you keep going on

even though

you know very well

you're killing me

with every step you take.

i take all as present gives

no matter the hurt

you make me Me.

Of all the things I need to say, all these words are in my way.

❥ Love!

How Do I Begin by ~DiamondGirlFL

2009-02-03T23:46:00.000-08:00

I cannot begin to explain
How it all feels here inside
For some reason it happens
Everytime you pass this way

I lose whatever sense I had
Along with the breath I need
While my heart races past me
Headlong into some whirlwind

I grasp at images that go past
Hidden in the mist of your words
They tease me with old promises
Wishes I know will never be true

I need what you still carry inside
That spark I saw inside my dreams
The one that could show me a way
To come back to what I never knew

❥ Love!

Lust to Love by =duststorm10

2009-02-03T14:32:00.000-08:00

Dear Sex,

I know we've had some good times together, but we haven't seen each other for a long time (perhaps too long) and I'd like to see you again. Unfortunately, I have some bad news.

There's something you should know. I don't feel the same way as I used to, and I'm sorry. You are a great thing, but...there's someone else. Someone that makes you seem...plain.

Her name is Love. She is a truly wondrous thing to behold, and I've recently become very well acquainted with Love. You will always make me feel good, but something deep within my very soul reaches out when Love calls. The very thought of Love makes me go numb. I thought you were all I needed, but I can't live without Love.

I wish it didn't end up this way, but at the same time, I wish it had happened sooner. I want to see you every now and again, but Love will always be with me when I see you from now on. I'm sure you will appreciate how Love makes our together time feel like something more.

Sincerely,
The Heart

❥ Love!

You got me floatin'

2009-02-03T12:07:00.000-08:00

So many things have happened in just less than a week. It's strange how happy things can just turn into something else within seconds. I feel helpless.

Korean Politician

2009-01-24T13:57:00.000-08:00

Fish sent me this link. Poor man.

DAT!

2009-01-22T22:07:00.000-08:00

So what exactly is DAT?

It's THE Dental Aptitude Test.

Carving Dexterity Test : 30 minutes
Survey of Natural Sciences Test : 60 minutes
Perceptual Ability Test : 60 minutes
Reading Comprehension : 50 minutes
Total torture session: 200 minutes = 2 hours 20 minutes

I researched more on the Carving Dexterity Test and found it rather interesting and very challenging.

a carving knife

a Sharpie and a plastic ruler

cylinderical soap measuring 84mm x 16 mm (diameter)

expected output ( *triangle has to have close-to-perfect 60 degrees)

I am so... screwed. Haha.

Just you wait DAT. I will get you.

Just so you know, there are only 10 Dental Schools in Canada.

Dalhousie University

Laval University

McGill University (if God allows it. Credit transfers will be tricky though.)

University of Alberta

University of British Columbia

University of Manitoba

University of Montreal

University of Saskatchewan

University of Toronto

University of Western Ontario

I have another Java assignment due next week. Sigh. Damn prerequisite!

Have a good weekend peeps! ...coz I will stay home and bury myself in codes and syntax. :)

Love!

2009-01-20T14:27:00.000-08:00

Had Computer Science quiz (which is equivalent to a test) yesterday and Chemistry quiz today.

CSc quiz: 2 pages, drew lots of flowcharts and 2 definitions!

Chem quiz: 3 pages, double spacing and mostly lableing!

Easy-peasy-lemon-squeezy. (whoever came up with that?! :S )

Thank God! :)

I'll be going to Camosun College to take the Food Safe Certificate course next month. You need certs (or at least experience) in ANY jobs here. If you want to take up waitering, take a waitering course. Deal with food? Food safe course. Babysit? Childcare course. It's crazy!

Back in Brunei,

"What are you?"
"Yellow IC (Bruneian)"

"You start work tomorrow."

Well, I'm planning to do some restaurant related stuff (get tips and all ;P) so Food Safe sounds pretty decent to me. I was thinking of working in a boutique but I think I'd try that out during the summer (if I'm not overloaded with Summer studies. sigh). I can't wait to work! Saving up for my UK trip! So far... hmm... about CAD$500 (S$595) sooo that means... I'm HALFWAY THERE! Yes, I've been very trifty here. Look at nice dress, turn away. Look at nice shoes, turn away. Smell nice coffee, run away. The coffee here smells sickeningly fragrant that it makes Nescafe smell like scum in between your toes. Okay that was gross.

It's really sunny nowadays but still freezing cold. We got frost all over the grass and benches today (I'm now making sure I bring my digicam everywhere I go coz "Who keeps a 10.1 megapixels camera at home", said Lily.")

Ooh! Since my digicam is plugged in, must as well. :)

the first snow...

was very... very thick.

We have Durian here toO!

a couple of days before Christmas at Harley's

Harley

Margie.

Old people are cute. :)

Harley's birdbath. HAHA!

Love!

My Fortress

2009-01-17T21:39:00.000-08:00

Though You have made me see troubles, many and bitter, You will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth You will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.

Psalm 71:20-21

1 incredibly busy week has passed. Lectures after lectures followed by assignments. Computer Science is driving me crazy! I have an Assignment due on Monday which requires me to construct 2 Scratch (a basic and simple programming that kids can use- which is not easy, mind you) and 2 Java ones. The thing with programming is that it is just as difficult as it sounds. In fact, worse.

Here's a sample of what I'm suppose to come up with.

Well I actually came up with that already. That's my design. So proud of it. You know, seeing your program run smoothly without bugs or a glitch can actually make someone feel at the top of the world. Just like how you've been waiting for a bus to come along for ages and when it finally arrives, you get this warm feeling inside your heart. One of life's small joys.

So ANYWAY...

I checked online for my cellphone bill and a part of me died. So on the 17th of December, I signed up for a student plan in Rogers. $25 a month (considered expensive. But come on, unlimited local calls for the 1st 3 months sounds pretty awesome to me - provided you HAVE local friends to actually CALL in that time frame). I've been accepting international calls on my line very often and so I thought, yeah... Rogers isn't as lame as DST to charge me eveytime I pick up a call be it international or not but NO. Rogers is lamer. So my phone bill for this month is $54.52. I didn't even MAKE any international calls coz my plan doesn't allow me to and I still have to pay my usual $25 PLUS the additional charges for accepting calls. Bugging hell.

Oh worse! So I found out I was a day late to settle my bill and in Canada, they charge you like crazy when you make late payments unlike in Brunei. So I told my Mum I had to go downtown to settle the bill. She ended up tagging along but that's not the point. The Rogers salesperson said he can't accept Debit cards or Cash but only Credit Cards coz he only sells phones and if I do want to pay by Debit card or Cash, I have to go all the way to Quadra ( which is not downtown and I don't even know how the heck to get there ) and pay there.

On a lighter note, my mum told me I can use her credit card to pay my bill back home online later and also order a new 13.3" LCD Macbook screen for my poor cracked screen Macbook which was exactly what I did. CAD$206 for the LCD screen. I feel so sorry for it everytime I looked at it (before I got my Ipod speakers which has a dock, I had to charge my Ipod on my Macbook). Ooh! Which reminds me, say Hi to my sexy speakers. They're portable, run on batteries or AC current, comes with a portable bag and it charges my Ipod everytime I play music on it.

I got it on Sale and guess how much it cost? $12 tops. No kidding! Plus, it's Phillips! Not some chingchong brand. :D I do hope Fish can get the same model too. Till here.

Love!

Surreal

2009-01-10T21:50:00.000-08:00

Life is so full of let-downs don't you think?
First week in Uni wasn't as full of confetti as I expected and I don't expect it to get any better than this. You take a good look around you and you see your peers, your friends, attending parties after parties, splurging on clothes and accessories, having the best time in their social life and you ask yourself why can't you live like them? Why do you have to sit on the same bus everyday, eat the same type of sandwich everyday, go to the same classroom everyday, walk the same route everyday...? Why do you have to go through your Programming textbook and read up on Organic Chemistry on a Saturday night? Why does Uni life suck so much?

I just came back from dinner at my Uncle's and we all had a good talk about Uni and many other random topics that I can't particularly recall now. Turns out I wasn't the only one asking those questions. My Uncle, now a retired Chemical Engineer often wondered why a group of Art students (not generalizing here) always sat at a particular spot and played cards whenever he passes by that particular certain area when he was attending Uni in his time. What he knows now is that he worked hard through Uni, graduated with an Engineering degree, had a great starting pay, worked his way up and retired at a young age when most of his friends are still working their buttocks off to save up for pension. There, he said, is the difference between long term fun and short term fun.

What he said really got to me. I'm doing Pre-Dentistry and the next 3 years of my life is very very crucial (surprisingly more crucial than A-levels. Haha!) and my career depends on the grades I will squeeze out from my time spent and knowledge gained in Uni. If I mess up, I can still use my grades to apply for Pharmacy (Sorry Soph but I hate Chemistry to the core [but will work hard to survive it] and the thought of seeing and applying it everyday is just too horrifying. Haha.) or Veterinary Medicine (I don't mind this really. But who knows right? :) ). Or maybe even do a diploma to fix crowns and dentures (which also involves tough competition; 20 students in the whole province are allowed into those courses in a year.. i think) after I spend an extra year to finish off with a Bachelor of Science Major in Physics and Biochemistry. Either way, I will let the Lord lead me. Humans have so little control to the things around them. We're so finite and so... limited. A slight change in environment can change the whole direction of your life.

A small thing for my friends who may not (hopefully not) get the results they want or results required for the course they wish to take, scholarships and whatever. Redo A-levels. No kidding. Screw the embarrassments (which are definitely part of the package when it comes to retaking subjects). Get a better grade and do a better course. The worst thing in life is having to live with something second best and not being able to live out your dreams or to your maximum ability knowing that you could've change it...but didn't. Retaking it doesn't assure you a better grade but at least you got 1 more chance left to make things better. It saddens me when I see smart people just lose out in life after a bad choice. sigh.

So anyway, I overslept today! Mum woke me up. Thank God for Mums. You know... I honestly think God placed my Mum here to be in Canada with me to help me settle down in Uni and also to be my alarm clock. I can be so deaf when I sleep you wouldn't even believe it. Haha! Okay so I thought I was late for my LPI Exam but lucky I wasn't. Hee~ The test was alright I guess. I won't say it was easy but people like Fish could've definitely aced it. ;) So yeah. They had a couple of MCQs for comprehension and correction for sentence structure. As for the essay, I wrote about Autobahns. You guys should google it up coz I think it's one of the most brilliant thing Hitler has ever came up with. :)

I think i'll end here. Gonna start experimenting with Textpad and other stuff. Damn programming.

Have a good weekend peepows. :)
Love!

2009-01-09T11:28:00.000-08:00

Just had Chemistry lectures. I was 15 minutes early for class (late on the first day coz I forgot my bus trip to Uni takes about an hour and an additional 15 minutes if the bus driver needs to pee.) Life hasn't been very happening lately. Still trying to settle down in Uni. There'd be this Undergraduate Welcome Reception later at 4 in the afternoon. I hope it's fun.

Sigh. Life is so predictable yet so unpredictable at the same time.
I don't know when I'll ever meet my old friends again.
I don't know which church I'll be attending permanently.
I don't know whether I can even make it through Computer Science.
I don't know which people I will hang out with.
I don't know where I'm gonna work to get money for the UK trip.
I don't know what my A-level results will be which leads to
I don't know what subjects code to take this Summer.

I don't know.

My feet are glued to the rocks at the bottom, but I’m happy. The only way you can fly is in Greek myths with wings made out of wax. But those melt under the sun and what’s the point of being able to be free at night when you can’t see anything?

I miss how things used to be.

On a lighter note, I conquered Binary Numbers yesterday! On my own. :)

I'm not done with Life yet.
Love!

Celery Crunch!

2009-01-07T21:59:00.000-08:00

Believe it or not, the strong smelling, mean looking, green of a thing called Celery (if you have to google it up, it's obvious someone has not been eating their vegetables ;) ) has NEGATIVE calories!

Why? This is because it takes MORE calories to EAT (or rather digest) a piece of celery than the celery has in it to begin with!

I'll end this post with a random fact.

"You burn more calories sleeping than you do watching TV. "

So get going girls. :)

Love!

ooh! This totally made my day.

"What?"

*note: 2 frogs making love. :)

Jigsaw by Finch

2009-01-07T14:22:00.000-08:00

i'm not so
completely stable
every time you make me smile
it's like
destroying
an abortion clinic
or something else just as
extremist
because i think you're the most
wonderfully
broken
masochistic
perfect
blistered
partially missing
piece of work i've had the pleasure
of experiencing while
you're putting yourself back together

i would
take the last
lopsided square of your puzzle
and hide it underneath the cushions
just so you would never be finished
or whole
or anything relatively
complete
just so i would know why
and just because i could
and just because i find you
so much more
beautifully attractive
when you're not quite
satisfied

i want
you closed off in glass jars
tucked safely
underneath my arm
so i can walk you
show you off
to any girl that comes along

* * * * * *

Here's a photo of my student ID. Just for show.

//edit* and... I took it off for safety purposes (now why didn't I think of it Larissa? Haha!)

❥ Love!

2009-01-06T20:57:00.000-08:00

"Yes, a man is a dangerous thing. So is a scalpel. It can wound or it can save your life. You don't make it safe by making it dull; you put it in the hands of someone who knows what he's doing" (Wild at Heart by John Eldridge, 83).

2009-01-05T21:33:00.000-08:00

"I asked God for strength that I might achieve.
I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey.

I asked for health that I might do greater things.
I was given infirmity that I might do better things.

I asked for riches that I might be happy.
I was given poverty that I might be wise.

I asked for power that I might have the praise of men.
I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.
I was given life that I might enjoy things.

I got nothing I asked for, but everything I hoped for.

Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered.
I am, among all men, most richly blessed."

- An Awesome Person

Oh. I didn't bring my digicam today. :D First day was alright. Got to know some peeps; a few from my Computer Science class and a few from the International Student Welcome thingo.

I was absolutely clueless in CSc! 100 over students crammed into a lecture hall. Thank God my teacher Yvonne had some spirit. I think dry and boring subjects need enthusiastic teachers to teach them to avoid killing the subject any further. Imagine hearing monotonous voice speaking programming for an hour and a half hours. Killer. For my first assignment, I have to do a wee bitta programming using Scratch and will mess around with it tomorrow.

Got to know some French people just now. There was this really Chinese looking French girl. Half Viet and half Chinese but she's French! Plus, her English sounded way too Frenchy.

OH!!! Highlight of the day. A MOOSE crossed the road my bus was taking. Organic Chemistry is calling me.

❥ Love!

Flutterbys

2009-01-04T20:43:00.001-08:00

It's funny how people get butterflies in their stomach every year especially on the day before school starts. I'm not sure about others but I sure do get my fair share. Tomorrow's my first day in Uni (Hell yeah i'm excited! I'm just trying to keep it cool coz it's just Uni... right? No biggie. Hee~ :D). Will bring my camera this time. I always feel rather embarassed to just whip out my Digicam from nowhere and start snapping some photos. Worse, ask someone to snap photos of me in it. It just reveals unneccesary sakai-ness you know? I've had countless 'sakai' moments here in Canada but I make sure I keep most of my sakai-ness to myself. :D

I Love how my dad never fails to encourage me.
Here's what he said that made my day and I hope it made yours too.
"God puts us in tough situations to bring out a diamond from the rocks and pearl from inside an oyster."

I know life has been too easy for me and the hard bit is just round the corner but hey, with God, I think I'm ready. :)

Okay small talk-ish post here. But yeah. Today was good. :)

❥ Love!

Some of the Best Things (from Deviantart)

2009-01-02T15:30:00.000-08:00

Warm coffee on a cold day
Finding $20 in the pocket of my jeans
Watching a sunset glow neon pink
Seeing the birds fly free in a cerulean sky

These are some of the best things to me
Things that make me smile inside
Simple things that uncomplicate life
Beautiful and grateful moments

Receiving a text from you on my cell phone
Seeing you again after an absence
The sound of your voice when you call me beautiful
Hearing you say you’re coming to see me
These are some of the best things to me

Things that make me smile inside
Simple things that uncomplicate life
Beautiful and grateful moments

Seeking the future without any fear
Learning to trust when I just don’t know how
Keeping my heart open to you
Thinking about you all of the time

These are some of the best things to me
Things that make me smile inside
Simple things that uncomplicate life
Such beautiful and intensely grateful moments.

"I cannot understand."

2008-09-04T18:57:00.001-07:00

Why let mystery cause you to refuse the Master? Do you understand the chemistry of digestion? Does your ignorance of it keep you from eating steak? Can you understand why the same sun and the same soil and the same rain get sweetness into the orange and sourness into the lemon and bitterness into the persimmon?

Lay aside your excuse of mystery and trust God as you trust the telephone to transmit your voice.